When I was a little girl, my mother taught me how to use a code word if I was in trouble and couldn’t speak up.
As an adult, I decided to impart this brilliant method to my baby girl. I figured she could use it to get out of sleepovers or if she had awkward hangouts.
But I never imagined her needing to use it so soon.
So yesterday was like any other day or so I thought.
As I sat in my kitchen, finishing my evening coffee, my phone rang. It was my ex-husband, Dave. Our relationship, once filled with warmth and affection, had grown strained over the years.
Divorce had a way of doing that, and while we tried to maintain a civil relationship for the sake of our daughter, Amy, things were often tense. “Hey, Claire,” Dave’s voice came through, slightly hesitant. “Amy wants to talk to you.
She’s been asking to tell you about her day since she got here.”
This caught me off guard. Amy usually enjoyed her sleepover weekends with her dad and rarely called me during those visits. “Oh, sure, put her on,” I replied, trying to keep my voice steady.
The fact that Dave sounded a bit off only added to the unease that was beginning to settle in my stomach.
“Hi, Mom!” Amy’s voice was as cheerful as ever, but there was something in the way she spoke that I couldn’t quite place. This was unusual for her, so I perked up and listened intently.
“Hey, sweetie! How’s your weekend going? Have you been having fun?” I asked, hoping to keep the conversation light.
“Yeah, it’s been good. We went to the park yesterday, and I drew some pictures this morning. I drew a dog, a tree, and… I wish I had a blue marker so I could draw blueberries.”
The words hit me like a ton of bricks! There it was: our code word. My heart skipped a beat, and for a moment, I couldn’t find my voice. Among her childish chatter, Amy had dropped in our “password.”
When my daughter was younger, I taught her the importance of having a secret word. It was something she could use if she ever felt unsafe but couldn’t voice it outright.
“Blueberries” was our word, but I never imagined she would use it.
I swallowed hard and forced myself to stay calm because the word meant “get me out of here immediately.” “That sounds great, honey. I’m on my way to come get you. Please don’t say anything to your father. I’ll talk to him when I get there.”
“Did you have anything else you wanted to tell me?”
“No, that’s it,” she replied, her tone still sweet but carrying an undertone of something else; fear? Uncertainty? I couldn’t be sure, but I knew one thing: I had to get her out of there.
“I’ll see you soon, okay?” I said as nonchalantly as possible.
“Okay, Mom. Love you.”
“Love you too, my Amy Wamy.”
I heard her giggle as I hung up the phone, my hands trembling. My mind raced as I tried to figure out what could have happened. Dave had never given me any reason to doubt his ability to care for our daughter, but something was wrong.
I grabbed my keys, my mind made up. I had to go to my ex’s place and get Amy.
When I finally arrived, I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. To my surprise
, the door swung open almost immediately. But it wasn’t Dave who answered.
A woman stood there, someone I had never seen before.
She was in her mid-40s, well-dressed but slightly disheveled, her eyes darting behind me as if checking if I was alone.
“Can I help you?” she asked with a tight smile.
My stomach dropped. “Where’s Amy?” I demanded, pushing past her into the house before she could stop me.
Dave appeared in the hallway, looking startled. “Claire? What are you doing here?”
I scanned the room, my heart pounding. No sign of Amy.
“She called me,” I said evenly, trying to keep my voice calm. “She used our code word.”
Dave frowned. “What?”
I wasn’t interested in playing games. “Blueberries, Dave.” I stepped forward, my hands shaking. “She told me about the blueberries. What’s going on?”
His face paled.
Before he could respond, I heard a small sniffle.
My eyes snapped toward the hallway leading to the bedrooms.
Amy.
She peeked around the corner, her little face anxious and afraid. But when she saw me, her lip trembled, and she ran straight into my arms.
“Mommy,” she whispered.
I scooped her up and held her tight.
Over her shoulder, I locked eyes with the strange woman. She wouldn’t meet my gaze.
I turned back to Dave, my voice sharp. “Who is she?”
Dave exhaled, rubbing his face. “Claire… this is Sandra.”
I stared at him. “And who is Sandra?”
His hesitation sent chills down my spine.
“She’s… my girlfriend.”
Girlfriend?
I was stunned. Dave had never mentioned dating someone seriously, much less someone who would be around our child.
Before I could respond, Amy gripped my sweater tighter.
“She’s mean, Mommy,” she whispered into my ear.
I stiffened.
“What?”
Amy’s little hands clenched. “She told me I had to call her Mommy. She said if I didn’t listen, I’d be in trouble.”
My blood turned to ice.
I pulled back to look at her. “What do you mean, ‘in trouble’?”
Amy bit her lip, looking at her father nervously.
Dave avoided my eyes.
I turned to him. “Dave, what the hell is going on?”
Sandra scoffed. “Oh, don’t be so dramatic. She’s just adjusting to the idea of a new woman in her life. I told her to be respectful.”
Amy buried her face in my shoulder.
That was it.
I took a deep, slow breath and stepped back toward the door.
“We’re leaving.”
Dave tensed. “Claire, let’s just talk about—”
“No.” I shook my head, my grip on Amy tightening. “We’ll talk when my lawyer is present. Right now, I’m taking my daughter out of this house.”
Sandra rolled her eyes. “You can’t just take her.”
“Actually,” I snapped, “I can.”
I turned to Dave, who looked guilty as hell.
“I trusted you with Amy, and you let a stranger force her into calling her ‘Mommy’ and threaten her? If you don’t want this to escalate, you’ll step aside and let me walk out that door.”
Dave hesitated.
But then Amy clung to me tighter.
And that hesitation? That was all I needed.
I turned and walked straight out.
Amy was safe.
But Dave?
He was about to lose more than just a girlfriend.