On Lola’s fifth birthday, I was supposed to be at the spa, soaking in lavender-scented silence, sipping cucumber water, and feeling pampered.
Instead, I was standing in the middle of a café filled with strangers, staring at my husband’s mistress blowing out birthday candles next to my daughter.
Let me start at the beginning.
A week before Lola’s birthday, Nora, my mother-in-law, showed up at our house holding a brochure and wearing her usual strained smile.
“We got you something, Kelsey,” Nora said, placing it delicately on the kitchen table. “A spa day. Just for you. You do so much. Let us handle the party this year. You deserve the rest. Five years of being a mother is no small feat.”
“You’ve been exhausted, honey,” he said. “Ever since Lola started kindergarten. Let the grandparents help. You just go and enjoy your trip to the spa.”
I hesitated.
Lola’s birthday meant everything to me. I’d been planning it for months. From handmade invitations and decorations to the perfect cake, and even tiny pink and gold crowns for every kid.
But I was tired.
Between my job, school pickups, and trying to keep our house from collapsing into chaos, I couldn’t remember the last time I’d had a moment to myself.
So I said yes.
They booked the whole thing. A massage, hot stone therapy, facial, manicure, and pedicure. They even told me to stay all day.
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“We’ll take care of everything, Kels,” Nora insisted. “Just take your dress or whatever you’re going to wear for the birthday party. Come straight here.”
The spa was beautiful. It was quiet. But two hours in, something twisted in my gut.
The
But Lola’s face kept surfacing.
Her big brown eyes. The way she looked up at me while helping frost the cake last night, her little hands covered in sprinkles.
“Do you think my friends will like the pink plates, Mommy?”
“I hope so, baby,” I replied. “I picked them just for you. So as long as you like them, I’m happy.”
I shifted on the table. My stomach twisted.
massage room smelled like eucalyptus and whispered peace. Soft music trickled from hidden speakers, and the therapist’s hands moved in practiced circles across my shoulders.
“You’re very tense,” she murmured.
“I have a five-year-old,” I gave a small laugh.
She chuckled politely and pressed deeper, working her way down my spine.
I closed my eyes. I tried to enjoy it.
The plates. The decorations. The dress we’d picked together.
Where were they now? What was Lola doing? What was Nora doing? I was sure that Peter and his father, Phil, were sitting and watching TV instead of helping.
I imagined Nora opening the storage bins I’d hidden from Lola in the hall closet. Nora wouldn’t know the order. She wouldn’t know which streamer color came first or that Lola hated the clown napkins with the big red noses.
A deep tug of discomfort settled in my chest.
What if they forgot her crown? What if they used a different cake? What if they didn’t play Lola’s favorite Disney song when she walked in?
Or worse… what if my child thought that I didn’t care?
“Are you okay?” the masseuse asked gently. “Your entire body tensed up.”
“Yeah,” I opened my eyes. “Sorry.”
But I wasn’t. I wasn’t okay. Not even close.
Because I knew exactly where I should be.
I sat up, the sheet slipping from my shoulder.
“I need to leave,” I said.
The masseuse blinked slowly. “But you still have—”
“I know. I’m so sorry,” I grabbed my clothes, my heart racing. “My daughter’s birthday is today. I can’t be here. I need to be there, with her.”
She didn’t argue. She just nodded quietly and stepped out of the room.
I got dressed with trembling hands, the silence around me suddenly suffocating.
This wasn’t guilt over skipping self-care. This was something else. Something primal. I felt it deep in my bones. I knew something was wrong.
And whatever waited for me outside that spa… I had to face it.
For Lola.
I drove toward home, thinking I’d grab Lola’s favorite chocolate cupcakes from the bakery. Just a little extra touch before the party. Straight after, I sped across town to my home.
But when I pulled into our driveway, the house was still.
No balloons. No music. No streamers taped to the porch like I’d planned. Just… nothing.
And then my neighbor, Rachel, waved from her garden.
“Hey, Kels!” she said. “Did you forget something for the birthday girl?”
“What? What are you talking about?” My chest tightened.
The party… Everyone left a while ago. I was watering my flowers when they came out. I wanted to see Lola in her birthday outfit, so I came to the fence. Peter said that the venue had changed…. I figured the guest list had changed too, because you hadn’t told me…”
“To where?” I gasped.
“The plant café, I think,” she said. “Apparently, Lola loves that place. I thought it was odd because you said it was a home party…”
“It was supposed to be, Rach,” I said solemnly. “I don’t know what’s happening.”
“Go,” she said. “Go now.”
“To where?” I gasped.
“The plant café, I think,” she said. “Apparently, Lola loves that place. I thought it was odd because you said it was a home party…”
“It was supposed to be, Rach,” I said solemnly. “I don’t know what’s happening.”
“Go,” she said. “Go now.”
Beside her stood Peter, smiling like this was the best day of his life.
And clinging to his arm, literally leaning into him, nails perfectly polished, lips too red for a kids’ party, was a woman I had never seen before.
Everyone sang for Lola. She beamed, although she did look overwhelmed.
Peter leaned in and kissed her cheek. Then the woman did too.
I stopped walking.
The room kept moving around me, balloons swaying, forks clinking, the clown mid-juggle, but everything inside me turned to stone.
Lola’s face was lit by flickering candles. Five years old. Beautiful. Beaming. She didn’t know what was going on around her.
She didn’t know why her father was holding some other woman and why her mother wasn’t at her birthday party.
My legs carried me forward before I could stop them. My hands were shaking, but my voice?
Steady.
“What the hell is going on?”